slow it down to a blur

sabotage is a deliberate action aimed at weakening an enemy, oppressor or employer through subversion, obstruction, disruption, and/or destruction. sabotage also means to trick or misguide. it is a french term that originate back to the industrial revolution when working class people from rural france would throw their wooden shoes into the machinery to show their disapproval to the authorities...all according to wikipedia.

lately i have come up with the notion that there might exist something such as self-sabotage.or the enemy within. people often refer to themselves as their own worst enemy. but who in their right mind will fight against themselves? so i asked myself this question over and over till i got to a point where it started to dawn on me...

i think this self-sabotage happens because of different reasons. some are: we are not honest with ourselves; we don't really know what we want; we don't really know where we are going; and so on...it's a situation where you look back at something you have done and you stand mystsified by your own actions. why in heavens name did i do that - you ask yourself. but to me more importantly is what happens after these incidents. how do you respond...and that to me is the telling point.

cos if it is sabotage it will de-rail you; misguide you or send you on a different path - which is not necessarily the right way to go. but you start doubting your own actions and decicions; you hesitate and you stumble; you become indecisive and confused; things that used to be arbitrary becomes a mountain to scale; you loose focus and become short-sighted; you reasoning chancges and you compromise youself...in other words your own actions becomes a stumbling block in the road. but more on an emotional and spiritual level than anything else.

how do you get yourself out of this mess? getting the simple and small things right. breaking things down to a slow halt and taking one step at a time. in sport there is a phrase: slow it down to a blur...thus don't get ahead of yourself. everything on its time and in its place.