a dark soul

there comes a time when you look in the mirror and you are not particularly impressed with the way things have turned out. you stand there amazed at the face staring back at you. not so much the physical appearance. but rather the dark and sadness in the eyes. you thought you were a happy-go-lucky kind of guy. you can fool a lot of people around you. but when it comes to facing up to your inner man there is no hiding the truth. those eyes don't lie. they speak from a dark place deep inside your soul that once was the fuel of your everyday life. a place you though you have left behind. a place you've turned your back on. sorted out. never to see the light of day again. then years later it shows its ugly face again. some people call it depression. but it is not really that. it is something worse. far worse. i like to call it the spirit of death. it is that place in your soul that thinks it can take over and cause havoc and destruction. it is a self-inflicted wound that refuses to heal. it brings hurt and rejection to the surface of a decaying broth. it remains unpredictable. you feel as if your life is spinning out of orbit and that all control has been lost. yet there is an Answer to this. the Answer will never leave you nor forsake you. the Answer will complete the good work He has started in you. the Answer = Jesus Christ.