direction

if you don't know where you are going...any road...will get you there!

celebrated, not tolerated

who will ever see

can anybody really know

the sound of my beating heart

the cries of my thirsty soul

not be be famous

but to be known

not to be successful

but significant

will they acknowledge

understand that i am different

embrace the difficulty they face

to make sense of it all

excitement turns into frustration

frustration becomes emotion

emotion reflects regret

regret the key that locks a heart

celebrated, not tolerated

broken

the broken clock is a comfort

it helps me sleep tonight

maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time

i am here still waiting though

i still have my doubts

i am damaged at best

like You've already figured out

i'm falling apart

i'm barely breathing

with a broken heart

that's still beating

in the pain there is healing

in Your name i find meaning

the broken locks were a warning

You got inside my head

i tried my best to be guarded

i'm an open book instead

and i still see Your reflection inside of my eyes

that are looking for purpose

they're still looking for life

i'm falling apart

i'm barely breathing

with a broken heart

that's still beating

in the pain is the healing

in Your name i find meaning

the broken lights on the freeway

left me here alone

i may have lost my way now

having forgot my way home

i'm falling apart

i'm barely breathing

with a broken heart

that's still beating

in the pain is there is healing

in Your name I find meaning

so i'm holdin' on
i'm holdin' on
i'm holdin' on
i'm barely holdin' on to You
i'm hangin' on
another day
just to see what You will throw my way
and i'm hangin' on
to the words You say
You said that i will
will be ok

lyrics by: lifehouse

an inspired joy

some days

some days i am inspired

a crazy fundamentalist

a ready-to-be historymaker

then those other days

other days i am apathetic

sapped and drained

empty and motionless

i am not moody

i am trying to be real

and thats the way the wind blows

or other might say

thats how i roll

never-the-less

i am not phased

cos self-knowledge is silver

emtional intelligence is golden

i want to live the moment

i want to dwell in the past

to swallow up the history

and wait eagerly

for the joys of the new morning

i will look to the future

and bath in the luxury

of having not been there yet

but for now

i am living the moment

taking it one step at a time

not over-thinking it

just living it

expressing it

chewing it

and spitting it out

some days i am indifferent

they are few and far between

because most days

most days i am smiling

inside and out

my face knows my heart

with a sense of belonging

an inspired joy

not me

searching to live right. story of my life. but it keeps avoiding me. inspired in my soul. but it sometimes doesn’t seem right. but i really love my own company. i am more than a man. and i deserve more than love. what is the reason for the sky being blue. or the sun going down. why all the clouds keep rolling by or the wind rushing past. i don’t know. is it because i am gone again. it just can't be true. and that is why i am unfaithful. unfaithful to myself. only to myself you hear. and it kills me inside. to know that i am happy to be someone else. i can see myself dying. slowly. dying. i don't want to do this anymore. i don't want to be the reason. the reason for him to die. i die a little more inside. i don't want to hurt anymore. i don't want to take away his life. i don't want to be his murderer. but it is time. to pull the plug. to move on. cos that the call. move on. i will not be left behind. he might. but not me.

you're alright

catch your breath

hit the wall

scream out loud

as you start to crawl

back in your cage

the only place

where they will

leave you alone

cause the weak will seek the weaker

til they've broken them

could you get it back again

would it be the same

fulfillment to their lack of strength at your expense

left you with no defense

they tore it down

and I have felt the same as you

i've felt the same as you

i've felt the same.

locked inside

the only place

where you feel sheltered

where you feel safe

you lost yourself

in your search to find

something else to hide behind

the fearful always preyed upon your confidence

did they see the consequence

when they pushed you around

the arrogant build kingdoms made of the different ones

breaking them 'til they've become just another crown

refuse to feel anything at all

refuse to slip

refuse to fall

can't be weak

can't stand still

you watch your back 'cause no one will

you don't know why they had to go this far

traded your worth for these scars

for your only company

and don't believe the lies

that they have told to you

not one word was true you're alright

you're alright

you're alright

lyrics by: lifehouse

dont you know

i dont know how to explain it

but i know that words will hardly do

miracles with signs and wonders

arent enough for me to prove to you

dont you know i have always loved you

even before there was time

though you turn away

i will tell you still

dont you know i have always loved you

and i always will

greater love has not a man

than the one who gives his life to prove

that he would do anything

and thats what i am going to do for you

lyrics by: third day

walls around us

find me there

oh desert speak to my heart. oh women of the earth. makers of children. who weep for lovers lost. your deepest secrets are known to me. i will not be moved. dont try to find the answer when there aint no question. brother let your heart be wounded and give no mercy to your fear. babylon is every town. its as crazy as its ever been. love is a stranger all around. in a moment we lost our minds here. we lay our spirits down. today we lived a thousand years. all we have is now. run to the water. find me there. burnt to the core but not broken. we will cut through the madness. these streets below the moon. i will never leave you. not until we can say - this world was just a dream. we were sleeping or are we awake. we lost our minds here. we dreamt the world was round. a million mile fall from grace. with a nuclear fire of love in our hearts. yeah i can see it now. out beyond all the breaking of waves and the tribulation. its a place and the home of ascended souls. who swam out there in love. rest easy baby. recognize it all as light and rainbows. smashed to smithereens and be happy. run to the water and find me there.

(adjusted lyrics)

in my fantasy

in my fantasy i see a fair world

where everyone

lives in peace and honesty

i dream of a place

to live that is always free

like a cloud that floats

full of humanity

in the depths of the soul

in my fantasy i see a bright world

where each night

there is less darkness

i dream of spirits

that are always free

like the cloud that floats

in my fantasy exists a warm wind

that breathes into the city

like a friend

i dream of souls

that are always free

like the cloud that floats

full of humanity

in the depths of the soul

english translation of nella fantasia

and i'm feeling good

birds flying high

you know how i feel

sun in the sky

you know how i feel

breeze driftin' on by

you know how i feel

it's a new dawn

it's a new day

it's a new life

for me

and i'm feeling good

fish in the sea

you know how i feel

river running free

you know how i feel

blossom on a tree

you know how i feel

it's a new dawn

it's a new day

it's a new life

for me

and i'm feeling good

dragonfly out in the sun you

know what i mean

don't you know

butterflies all havin' fun

you know what i mean

sleep in peace when day is done

that's what i mean

and this old world is a new world

and a bold world

for me

stars when you shine

you know how i feel

scent of the pine

you know how i feel

oh freedom is mine

and i know how i feel

it's a new dawn

it's a new day

it's a new life

for me

and i'm feeling good

lyrics by: nina simone

take this life

as i'm standing here

staring into the mirror

see the figure of a man

trying to take a stand

and live for something more

integrity is what i need

honor to my soul i feed

to give it up

pack it in

getting rid of all my sin

that’s weighing me down

won’t you come and fill

i want you to come
and make me more real
take this life

in my pursuit of what is real

my heart is longing

with a need to feel

my soul come alive

i trudge and i step

through the height and the death

of a long narrow as i’m growing old

won’t you take this life

won’t you change this life
come and make me whole
and soon i will be home

lyrics by: shawn mcdonald

scarlet

middle of nowhere

finally you can breathe

nobody knows your name

it's easier

shut your eyes tightly

clench your fists 'til they almost bleed

cautiously, lightly

gently expose what's underneath

and all you feel now

is the scarlet in your day

even it's real

you can't stay...

so there you go

you're gone for good

your mind is swollen

from months of thought

without release

they've taken their toll on you

this very moment

of timid and fragile honesty

is precious and rare and fleeting

and all you feel now

is the scarlet in your day

even it's real

you can't stay...

lyrics by: brooke fraser

a human proverb

find the foundation of true knowlegde

discipline yourself cos it brings life

help others to understand

always be right, just and fair

listen to my counsel

when i share my heart

it will make you wise

to stear clear of calamity, anguish and distress

beware of all who are greedy

it robs them of life

they are destoyed by their complacency

rather listen and live in peace

untroubled by fear or harm

treasure my commands

tune your ears

concentrate on understanding

cry out for insight

it brings a successful life

and crown you with grace

be honest

live with integrity

never let loyalty and kindness leave you
write them on your heart

wisdon will enter your heart

knowledge will fill you with joy

trust with all your heart

dont seek your own

wisdom is the tree of life

she offers long life

she will guide you

dont loose sight of common sense

refresh your soul

fix your eyes and look straight ahead

guard your heart it determines your course through life

the sun shines ever brighter untill the full light of day

happy hour

time is now

take off the mask

put on reality

hide the brave face

show people what they want

dont be fake

be real

happy hour is here

i live out of a place

it is deep within

i dont show it often

but its integral to me

its my core

it consists of joy

it enables me

to write without pain

to say what i mean

without the emotion

i guess it my gift

to just say

and not to feel

some claim i'm a freak

others think i'm unique

perhaps somewhere inbetween

it matters not

it does not change a thing

i will always be me

say what i have to

write to heal

sing to feel

cry to taste

salt on my face

healing under my skin

they think i'm dark

but on the contrary

i shine from within

they can see it in my eyes

although my words speak another language

they understand it not

it does not add up

but they envy

they crave to taste

to be able to sing or write the song

to understand the ticking inside

happy hour is now

eyes never lie

whatever the mouth my speak

light overcomes the darkness

sun breaks through the day

illuminates the road

joy comes in the morning

like planes

yeah
i am gonna sip on this misery
like a cocktail in the sun
i am gonna push all the boundaries
just for the fun
i am gonna spill through this darkness
like at the walk off the egde off the sea
i am gonna kiss the crazy
like you kissed me

we all get high
to get out of the lows
it don’t work
but thats because
we all come down
like a plane out of the sky
it hurts like hell
but thats just life

i am gonna saddle up this heartbreak
and take it for a joy ride
i am gonna laugh
while you write me
cos i have too much pride
and then i will send you packing

we all get high
to get out of the lows
it don’t work
but thats because
we all come down
like a plane out of the sky
it hurts like hell
but thats just life

lyrics by:plush

restored

all this time i've wandered around. searching for the things i'll never know. i've been searching for this answer that only will be found in your love. and now i feel it. my heart is being mended by your touch. and i hear it. your voice that's shown me purpose in this world. you have restored me. from my feeble and broken soul. you have restored me. i've only come to realize my strength will be made perfect at your throne. laying all reflections down to see the precious beauty that you've shown. and i feel it my heart is being mended by your touch. and i hear it. your voice that's shown my purpose in this world. you have restored me from my feeble and broken soul. you have restored me. laying all these questions down. you've answered what i need. you've given more than i deserve. you're making me complete. you've given all these open doors. i'm humbled at your feet. you've shown me what you've done for me.

lyrics by: jeremy camp

the city never sleeps

i would love to put london in a bottle. pack it in and take it with me. to far off places. the smells and yells of the underground. the way it hits you as you submerge into a vast network of lines and stations. the warm air blowing in your face as you wait on the platform. behind the line. minding the gap. the sound of the tube approaching. the screatching and the sparks. everybody shuffling forward. northern line. picadilly. or bakerloo. an oven without personality. the endless possibilities of your relationship with your oyster card. standing there. armed with oyster. staring at the map. where shall we go. you alight when the drumming the shoving the pushing becomes to much. you alight at the next stop while this is a district line service to upminister. you alight. the escalator is your staiwya to heaven. rolling you on to the next costa or nero. avoiding starbucks. you are bombarded by food sections. today m&s. tomorrow waitrose. the choice of kings when you feel like snacking before catching the next red bus or waving town a black cab. the bells and whistles. the noise of the streets. the flashing tourists around embankment. leister square. or china town and the west end. marching like ants on a mission. you can stop and close your eyes. to hear the city. you can escape to the parks. green. hyde. or primrose hill for the fancy and grand. even there you have sounds that makes the place the city it is. amuse yourself. find a spot and watch the people pass by. sloane street. kensington. sw15. hackney. primrose hill. mayfair. shepherds market. the amazing victorian architecture. the quiet side streets out of the buzz and the hussle of the city. just wondering around and absorbing. spending endless afternoons in waterstones bookstore. or finding a small second hand bookstore down one of the many dirty side streets close to borough market. the amazement of how far you can travel for £1. but not even being able to buy anything worth mentioning from a street vendor for the same price. watching people on buses and trains. the things they keep themselves busy with. ipods. cameras. books. the metro. the london light. girlfriends. boyfriends. texting. speaking. phoning. sleeping. waking up at the right stop. clocks built in. the stampeed at waterloo. the waiting for an indication of platform and then the rush. shuffling. stumbling. running for the train. the wonders of public transport. night buses that takes you from kings cross to puntey. football pages in the daily mail. the latest transfers. the tabloid news. the rain. the dark months of november. the jubilation of summer in august and everything after. a bonus. it creeps under your skin. the city never sleeps.

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introspective

i dont know if you will be able to see. it has been such a long time. the changes that have come over me are so many. it has been a long time. weeks. months. years. since i had the chance to breath you in. now with the last few days approaching. i suddenly feel afraid. afraid that i have drifted away. away from you. away from me. so i have been re-calling old stories. old songs and memories to remind me of you. my heartland. my home. where i was born. the songs and stories remind me of my past. of were it is i come from. i am sure there are reasons why i feel so far away today. but for now i know that i miss you. i think about you all the time. i can hear you calling me. soon i will be going home. but what if. if i have become a stranger to you. a stranger to myself. that would be sad. cos you are all i ever had. i have been away. traveling. moving from one place to the next. to prove myself to nobody. perhaps to you. perhaps to me. but there were points that needed proving. there were friends worth loosing. and i lost them. forgotten. left behind. but i found others. yes. on my way there were many. ladies that i have kissed and left crying. broken hearts and stolen dreams. also true. there is no point in denying. i have traveled hard and far. across the four winds. to every corner. and now i am sitting here by myself. introspective of where i have been. reflecting on the shadows that lie behind me in the wake. the fire is cracking.the room is empty. the wine is sweet. the conversation is dying slowly. the sand is running out. and so is my time. yes my time away from you is running out. and soon we will be re-united. soon i will smell your earth. soon i will taste your provision. soon i will see your sunsets. your childrens crying. now i know that i miss you. i think about you all the time. i can hear you calling me. soon i will be going home. but what if. if i have become a stranger to you. a stranger to myself. that would be sad. cos you are all i ever had.

too much

is it possible

can it be

i keep on wondering

the question spins through my head

the answer for always eluding me

i stare out the train
highlands await in the distance
north sea on my right
memories of our conversation mingle
you never gave me an answer

i feel empty

the pain intensifies

am i too much

is it too much to digest

can you not handle all of me

can it be possible

am i that special

or are you the blind one

can you not see

what is the matter with you

i empty myself

still it is not appreciated

taken for granted

is there anything worse than that

who ever wants to feel this way

i conclude

it is you not me

i am what i am

you just cant see it

you are consumed with yourself

and to be honest

i dont want you around anymore

you only steal from me

no appreciation

never a thank you or a sorry

it is too much

i am too much

you cant handle it

and i cant handle that you cant handle it

too much